Blog #10 - Random Ramblings, part 3...damn I ramble a lot!

So, today I got a stupid ass ticket for having my RiverLINE ticket stamped twice. Who knew that was against the damn law? Like wtf, son. The RiverLINE is stupid and I hate it. I hope they have some sort of notification that gives them some sort of alert when someone posts their name and they see this. Stinking $74 ticket. I hate them. For those that don't know...the RiverLINE is a NJ Transit train line that runs from Trenton to Camden. You have to buy a ticket and get it validated by the machine and the damn thing is only valid for 2 hours while hoping that the train people come and take your ticket, giving you a reason to buy another one. Now, if the stupid train people don't come take your ticket, you would think that you could just validate it again, right? WRONG!!! Stupid RiverLINE makes you buy another one because apparently it's illegal to stamp one ticket more than one time. I rode this damn train all week and not ONCE saw the train people until today...my last day for the week. WTF. It would be me, right? Of course it would. Wouldn't be my life if it wasn't...lol. Sometimes, you have to laugh to keep from crying.

So, I just saw a commercial for a new Freddie Kreuger film. Really? How many times are we going to do remakes or sequels? How many more times can Freddie kill someone in their sleep before we decide we're over it? Oh well. I won't be paying to see that crap. There's like 7 other movies before this new one. Speaking of movies...am I the only one that can't wait to buy Avatar on DVD?! It came out on Earth Day (figures, but an excellent marketing strategy...lol). That movie, is sheer awesomeness, even though the storyline has been done fiddyleven times before. Sheer awesomeness. Pandora was beautiful...but not so beautiful that I would kill myself like I read about folks doing. That was just sheer madness.

So, I haven't told a lot of people, but I semi-got-laid-off. I guess that's why I got emotional with that ticket thing from the first paragraph. I've never not had $74 before. I've had to make some decisions that I haven't had to make before...it's rough. I've been trying to keep a smile on my face for the world outside, but inside, I feel like I'm slowly dying. But, to give up would be a losing move, so I have to keep on trucking, I guess. ::kanye shrug:: It's amazing how when you're down...no one can help you, but when someone needs help, I'm always like the first there. Oh well again...lol. No use crying over some spilled milk, yanno?

Well, I was talking to my ex (because now we're bffs and shit) about my damn struggle with getting a guy that isn't a horny nutcase attracted to me. I always get the horny jokers. The other day, I had this guy who is really into church and everything tell me that he thinks I'm tempting and that he would sleep with me. Then he followed it up with "I would marry you". Really? That's what's hot in the streets? We have a conversation about your job, you stare at me for a little bit and that's what comes out of your mouth? Word? Oh, okay. Then I got a phone call from another dude who said he wanted to see me because he wants to "lick all over your body. I'm even thinking your toes". Really? You felt the need to tell me that? That's what's hot in the streets now? Got it. iQuit.

What else can I ramble on while I'm awake? Oh yeah. So, I decided that I want a spacebag system. I have a whole bunch of stuff I need to minimize and I don't really have a lot of closet space. That would save me dumb space. Like wordisms. I could shrink all my sweaters and all the pajama stuff I don't really wear (even though I probably COULD throw it out...but that makes too much sense because what if I want it later...lol). I'm excited for it, actually. How big of a geek am I for THAT one? HUGE. I'm a grande geek. It tickles my fancy. I'll have so much drawer and closet space available soon. Not that I can buy anything to fill up the space ::side eye:: This broke shit is for the birds!!! I'm gonna go get a damn part-time job somewhere. Either that or become a damn gigolo. I hear they make bank. I would need some hoes, though. I'll be like the chick in Hung on HBO...or is it Shotime. Oh well, either way you know wtf show I'm talking about and that's all that matters. That's all that matters...lol.

G'day to you!

Blog #9 - Are you there, God...it's me, Twinki...

So, with everything going on, I have the undeniable urge to have a talk with God. For those that don't know, my talks with God are rather "different" from most, from what I hear. I literally sit and just talk. And talk. And talk some more. My line sister had the pleasure of being on the phone with me when I had the need to have a talk with Him and she laughed at my approach. Not the message...just the approach. I know that God is an omnipotent being and that he is everywhere...so I figure He has to be on the innernets too. Maybe He has an alert set up for when someone posts His name, he gets a message on a cloud and He looks. That would be awesome. God, I'm still going to have a wrap session with you once I'm done with the innernet version. Here goes:

Hi God, it's me again. I just wanted to talk to You about a few things...get a wrap session going. I'm probably all discombobulated and will run off at the mouth on a tangent, but You already know that. I know that You've heard me say that April is not my month, but I know that You work in mysterious ways. I wanted to thank You for all of the moving and shaking You did to help Stephanie and I out...I humbly accept Your Gracious gifts in Your name. I gave my friend the news You gave to Stephanie about the move and he said that "good things happen to good people"...I haven't been feeling very good. I've just been so bogged down and worried and emotional and sad and I don't know where it's coming from because I know that through You all things are possible...but still, yanno? I hope you do, because I don't. I'd like to thank You for all that You have done and given me. I thought blogging would work, but I don't feel like this is coming out right, so I'll redo it live and in person before I go to bed.

But before I go...I know that You had to take Mike and Nia because you needed them; could You send them a message that they are dearly missed and that they are loved very much. And can You tell my father, Grandma, Papa, Granny and all of my friends that I said hi? Thank you.

Amen.

Blog #8 - Angel Standing By...

I haven't blogged in a minute and while I had a happy go lucky update, I woke up to some sad news and have decided to dedicate this post to the memory of Mike, one of my favorite brothers of Alpha Phi Alpha Fraternity, Inc. at the Iota "Death" Rho Chapter.

I met Mike at a Meet the Greeks, probably in Fall 2003...maybe even before...but definitely at least Fall 2003. One of the sweetest guys I've met. I wish I had my old camera because I know I had some pics of him on there with Lucky and Mike the Remix. Mike eventually became my "chapter Alphas" due to the revival at Seton Hall and even though there were brothers at SHU, he was always still around. My heart is saddened at the news and the loss of not just a fellow Greek, but a compadre.

To the brothers of Iota Rho - I know that no words will soothe the pain that you feel, but please know that my heart goes out to you in your time of need. Please know that Mike is now an angel, looking upon you all with pride and joy.

I dedicate this song to Mike, Nia and Iota Rho.