So, I put some new songs on my iPod (which is cleverly named Music of the Soul...lol) and I thought I'd share them with you along with the chorus. Songs really can speak for you. For some reason, I don't know why all of these songs deal with heartbreak and pain and shit like that, but whatever...that's beside the point. Besides...I didn't ask you for your facts and examples, anyways.
Maxwell - Fistful of Tears
I go insane/Crazy sometimes/Trying to keep you from losing your mind/Open your eyes/See what's in front of your face/Save me my fistful of tears
Why I love it: It's Maxwell. End of story. No, really. End of story.
Novel - Fuck with My Mind
You're just so beautiful it makes me cry/You always get your way girl, every time/It breaks my heart we had to say goodbye/I just can't let you fuck with my mind/My tears are bullets and my eyes are loaded guns/I never thought I'd be the one to run from love/I just can't lose when it all comes push to shove/I just can't let you fuck with my mind
Why I love it: It's basically a song about how this chick is mind-gaming him and how he loves her, but he's not falling for the bullshit. I know we've all been there before. I love his voice, too. He's not really a new artist; he had a sound out a few years ago about being able to eat a peach for hours (clearly we all know what he's referring to...lol). His voice fits the melody of the song and I just loves it.
RydazNRtists - Sorry Ass Apology
This is my sorry ass apology/I took your love for granted/So selfish, just doing me/Now I feel like uh oh/Now you feel like oh, oh oh/This is my sorry ass apology
Why I love it: The song is about how he knows he ain't shit for cheating and lying and being sloppy and shit. Even though they know they aren't shit, it's an apology for being a sorry sonofabitch...lol. Not that I condone cheating or anything, but I mean...hell, at least they're trying to apologize. If one of them were my man, would I accept it...maybe. Would I get back with him...nah, son. But the ideology of it is nice. And it's not even a forgive me and take me back joint. It's like, look...I know I fucked up big...here's my apology and if you accept it, okay...if not...I have to live with it because I fucked up. And really...how many men apologize for fucking shit up? Lol
Tracie Spencer - Tender Kisses (chorus and breakdown)
Tender kisses/Blown away/Tender kisses/Gone tomorrow, gone today/Tender kisses/Bye, baby/Bye, baby//I wonder if you ever loved me/Tell me, was I so blind that I could not see/Holding on to the memory/Of the way you used to kiss me/All I ever wanted was someone to call my own/I'll never know/You'll never know/We'll never know/All those tender kisses blown away/Bye baby bye
Why I love it: This isn't a NEW song by any stretch of the imagination, but it's new on my iPod, therefore it counts. It's basically a goodbye song. And who hasn't had to break up with someone before...lol
Wale ft. Lady Gaga - Chillin (chorus and breakdown)
Looking at/Looking at/Looking at me/Look at that/Look at how they're looking at me/Eyes all sticky like honey on bees/Look at that/Look at how they're looking at me//Get 'em all/Get 'em all/Pack it all up/Stack up your funds like a million bucks/Across the pond, they all know us/International, ohh/Driving my car to a foreign place/Looking at me/Now they know my face/We want it all now/We got it all, yup/Look at that/Look at how they're looking at us
Why I love it: It's a cocky ass song! Who doesn't love cocky shit?! Like, really...look at them looking at me. They can't keep their eyes off me. AND I'm international, so suck it! *pops collar*
Wale ft. Marsha Ambrosius (aka the Songstress from Floetry)
I wonder why I sit and cry/Wish I could shed all of these tears/I'm down and out/I'll keep it moving and trying to get out/I don't know to move on/Where I went wrong/Wish I could live with no fears/So down and out/I'll keep it moving and trying to get out/Somehow...
Why I love it: Wale is just a beast. The spoken word at the end of the song just hit me like a ton of bricks the first time I heard it. I never really paid attention to Wale before I saw this video, but it was one of those things that just made me stop and sit on the bed and really digest what he was talking about. He speaks the truth, which is kind of sad that this is the state of relationships (but that's another blog for another day...or maybe THIS day)
And those are my new songs on my iPod. My iPod makes me smile :)
Monday, May 24, 2010
Saturday, May 22, 2010
Blog #12 - I Go Insane, Crazy Sometimes...
...trying to keep you from losing your mind. Open your eyes, see what's in front of your face. Save me my fistful of tears...
The things we do when we love someone...lol. We become so selfless in seeing the other person happy that we forget about our own happiness...even if their happiness comes at the expense of our own feelings or happiness. But sometimes, that's what you have to do. Being selfish never helped anyone in the long run. But wouldn't it be nice if it did? I wish I could put my feelings before someone else's. I'm not wired like that, though. They say it's better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all. I guess they're right...whoever the proverbial "they" are. ::kanye shrug:: C'est la vie. I have to start looking out for me emotionally. Oh well. I just felt like I had to get that out at 4:20am. Maybe I'll expand on it at a later date.
The things we do when we love someone...lol. We become so selfless in seeing the other person happy that we forget about our own happiness...even if their happiness comes at the expense of our own feelings or happiness. But sometimes, that's what you have to do. Being selfish never helped anyone in the long run. But wouldn't it be nice if it did? I wish I could put my feelings before someone else's. I'm not wired like that, though. They say it's better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all. I guess they're right...whoever the proverbial "they" are. ::kanye shrug:: C'est la vie. I have to start looking out for me emotionally. Oh well. I just felt like I had to get that out at 4:20am. Maybe I'll expand on it at a later date.
Monday, May 17, 2010
Blog #11 - I Ain't Saying She's A Gold-digga...
...but she ain't fucking with a broke n*gga.
So, I'm sure some of you know, but if you don't...I am "in between stages" aka I'm not working. In between stages just sounds a lot nicer and less depressing. Who knew?
At any rate, onto today's story. There's this guy that lives in another state (let's call this state Illinois* and let's call him Mike*). Mike has been crushing on me since about 2005, but as you all know, I don't do the LDRs. Just not me; no thank you. Not only is Mike far as hell away...but, I...just don't find myself attracted to Mike. It's not that Mike is a bad guy...because I think he's a nice dude and I like him as a friend. But I'm not attracted to him as a potential mate and I feel horrible, because he's always asking if I'm single and telling me all of the things he would do for me. His newest thing today was asking if there would be a shot if he moved to Jersey. I said no because of everything that's going on and I need to focus on me and get myself back on my feet. Then he went on this little spiel about if I believe in Satan because men were put on this earth to provide for women and yadda yadda yadda. Now, seeing as how I'm not attracted to him in a romantic way, if I would have said yes, wouldn't that have made me a gold-digger? Yes? Because I think it would have. And then I would be no different from the chicks in Illinois that he's always bitching about. My other question is: if I WAS attracted to him romantically, if I would have said yes, would THAT make me a gold-digger as well? Or is that different because there's an attraction? Is gold-digging based soley on the level of attraction that is between both parties or is it a universal thing and no matter what the attraction, gold-digging is gold-digging?
On another/bigger note: are we as women, that have been raised by single mothers being nurtured/brainwashed into the headstrong, "I can do bad by myself", Miss Independent, feminist by choice or by force? Is it even brainwashing or are we being prepared and groomed to potentially have to face the world alone, without our male counterpart? Do we even "need" this male counterpart? Does this "Miss Independent" attitude we have help us or hurt us in the long run? Are men and romantic relationships a necessity or an asset? Should women always be subservient to a man, as is in the Bible, or did that work then and Miss Independent works now? I have so many questions on what to expect and what to do because I'm so torn. I would love for a man to be the head of household but in the same token, I don't want to be a housewife or Susie Homemaker. I just don't feel like that's me. But how do I know - I've never had the opportunity to be Susie Homemaker. What if I get the opportunity and love it? Will that go against everything that I've known that women are strong and independent or will I change my view to "this works for me, do what works for you"?
To keep going with the topic but from a different aspect - are men to blame for the general shift from family and the man being the head of household to single mom being head of household and being forced into the role of Ms "I-Can-Do-Bad-By-Myself"? I know it takes two to tango and make a baby...but with a large shift going from men turning women into wives/mothers to turning women into baby mamas have to do with the shift of being bad by myself? Or are women to blame for giving up the ass before he "put a ring on it" and essentially putting themselves in this situation to become a baby mama instead of a bride? Even more confusing...if she IS groomed to be a future Susie Homemaker, does wait until he put a ring on it and she did wait until marriage to become a mommy and she becomes Susie Homemaker (which is what her mother prepared her for) - no outside job - just cooking, cleaning, children, tending to the affairs of the house, etc. and he leaves her...what is she to do then? I know she goes out and gets a job - essentially forcing her to become "Ms Independent". Do you think this would have an effect on her mentality: will she become one with the newly Ms Independent or will she always crave to be Susie Homemaker?
My brain is starting to hurt...lol. Goodnight!!!
So, I'm sure some of you know, but if you don't...I am "in between stages" aka I'm not working. In between stages just sounds a lot nicer and less depressing. Who knew?
At any rate, onto today's story. There's this guy that lives in another state (let's call this state Illinois* and let's call him Mike*). Mike has been crushing on me since about 2005, but as you all know, I don't do the LDRs. Just not me; no thank you. Not only is Mike far as hell away...but, I...just don't find myself attracted to Mike. It's not that Mike is a bad guy...because I think he's a nice dude and I like him as a friend. But I'm not attracted to him as a potential mate and I feel horrible, because he's always asking if I'm single and telling me all of the things he would do for me. His newest thing today was asking if there would be a shot if he moved to Jersey. I said no because of everything that's going on and I need to focus on me and get myself back on my feet. Then he went on this little spiel about if I believe in Satan because men were put on this earth to provide for women and yadda yadda yadda. Now, seeing as how I'm not attracted to him in a romantic way, if I would have said yes, wouldn't that have made me a gold-digger? Yes? Because I think it would have. And then I would be no different from the chicks in Illinois that he's always bitching about. My other question is: if I WAS attracted to him romantically, if I would have said yes, would THAT make me a gold-digger as well? Or is that different because there's an attraction? Is gold-digging based soley on the level of attraction that is between both parties or is it a universal thing and no matter what the attraction, gold-digging is gold-digging?
On another/bigger note: are we as women, that have been raised by single mothers being nurtured/brainwashed into the headstrong, "I can do bad by myself", Miss Independent, feminist by choice or by force? Is it even brainwashing or are we being prepared and groomed to potentially have to face the world alone, without our male counterpart? Do we even "need" this male counterpart? Does this "Miss Independent" attitude we have help us or hurt us in the long run? Are men and romantic relationships a necessity or an asset? Should women always be subservient to a man, as is in the Bible, or did that work then and Miss Independent works now? I have so many questions on what to expect and what to do because I'm so torn. I would love for a man to be the head of household but in the same token, I don't want to be a housewife or Susie Homemaker. I just don't feel like that's me. But how do I know - I've never had the opportunity to be Susie Homemaker. What if I get the opportunity and love it? Will that go against everything that I've known that women are strong and independent or will I change my view to "this works for me, do what works for you"?
To keep going with the topic but from a different aspect - are men to blame for the general shift from family and the man being the head of household to single mom being head of household and being forced into the role of Ms "I-Can-Do-Bad-By-Myself"? I know it takes two to tango and make a baby...but with a large shift going from men turning women into wives/mothers to turning women into baby mamas have to do with the shift of being bad by myself? Or are women to blame for giving up the ass before he "put a ring on it" and essentially putting themselves in this situation to become a baby mama instead of a bride? Even more confusing...if she IS groomed to be a future Susie Homemaker, does wait until he put a ring on it and she did wait until marriage to become a mommy and she becomes Susie Homemaker (which is what her mother prepared her for) - no outside job - just cooking, cleaning, children, tending to the affairs of the house, etc. and he leaves her...what is she to do then? I know she goes out and gets a job - essentially forcing her to become "Ms Independent". Do you think this would have an effect on her mentality: will she become one with the newly Ms Independent or will she always crave to be Susie Homemaker?
My brain is starting to hurt...lol. Goodnight!!!
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